Эмоционалдык чарчап-чаалыгууну көптөгөн активисттер ар кандай себептерден улам башынан өткөрүп келишкен, бул зиндин үстүнөн иштеген БФДнын активисттери да четте калган жок.
It is as important to talk about activist burnout as it is about other aspects of feminist organizing.
Often, burnout in activism is characterised by the lack of necessary internal resources for people to stay engaged in mentally and emotionally demanding labour. When burnout set in, some of us were unable to simply check our email, read, keep updated about the events or get involved in organizing with the same enthusiasm and faith we had before.
Burnout is something many grassroots activists have experienced for various reasons, and BFI activists who worked on the zine were not exceptions.
There were both internal and external reasons for our burnout. People moving away made collaboration harder. A lack of communication negatively impacted working relationships and friendships. A lack of attention and care often meant we did not listen to each other, which put some in difficult positions. Sometimes, despite our own principles, there were disagreements and personal hostility among BFI activists. Some of these internal issues underscored the importance of constantly returning to collective agreements and principles as we helped each other go through this stage of growth together.
The BFI collective by no means regarded conflict as something inherently bad. Our collective also believed that anger, disagreement and rage could also be beautiful. This is particularly true for those of us who came to feminism to challenge the oppressive practices.
In some ways, burnout led to necessary changes within BFI. We came to a collective decision to hand over the legacy and herstory of BFI to reinvigorate the collective. So, in the spring of 2019, BFI began a new chapter of its herstory with an all-new generation of BFI activists.
Collective renewal was necessary for BFI’s self-organization to remain vibrant and sustainable. It also meant that BFI’s methods, tactics and approaches evolved and changed as one generation of activists passed the torch to the next.
BFI is one of the few platforms in Kyrgyzstan that allow for experimental projects, demonstrating the collective’s fearless attempts to grow, make mistakes, learn and press forward. This is a “living and breathing” example to continue building feminist community and creating the present and future ourselves - here and now.